Goddess Love Thyself

IMG_2120Everyone who knows me, know that one of my strongest desires is to help people see their own greatness. I myself have struggled with low self-esteem and lack of self-respect, and I still have a lot of work to do, but I have managed to shift some heavy beliefs. I now see my worth.

I have reconnected with my roots, with the earth and the divine feminine living inside me. I feel so much respect and admiration for my inner Goddess now. I feel I want to honor her with every decision I make. I admit that I still go on auto pilot sometimes, but it’s becoming increasingly hard to do so. She roars and speaks her soul, shouting at me when I make choices out of fear. I have a lot of growing to do, but I am committed to keep working on honoring myself everyday.


Why I am sharing this with you right now, is because I want you to ask yourself these questions:
1. Do I love myself? 
2. Do I feel that the people around me are loving and kind to me?
3. Do I feel I get the respect I deserve?
4. Am I satisfied with my everyday experience?
5. Do I think that I am beautiful on every level there is?

Sit with these questions for a minute, breathe deeply and see what answers come up.
If you answer No to any question, you like many of us, have some healing to do. Don’t worry, you will see how magnificent you are and what greatness you deserve. Just set the intention to love yourself more, and you’ve just begun a magical ride dear.

I want to be there for you on your journey, so I have decided to start focusing more energy on writing, coaching and creating art focused on Self Love. This is all part of the #Loveolution, I truly believe that you have to Love yourself before you can Love all, when you feel good, you do good with ease.

I wish you lots of happiness and clarity.

The Wild Woman

Since I am borrowing a friends cottage on the country side this week, I have been doing some earthing and reconnecting with my true self. Digging deep I found this wild woman inside me who is just yearning to dance naked in the rain. Today the opportunity presented itself. The rain started pouring and I could run outside in my birthday suit and dance away. Every drop on my skin felt like pure magic. But I could also feel how a toxic fear started to speak, what if somebody sees me? What if they think my body is ugly?…. The yearning took over, I just had to be naked in the rain, touching mother earth with my feet, letting the heavens kiss my skin. Fear disappeared, questions arose, why haven’t I done this earlier? Why is my nakedness so shameful? It feels so freeing to be naked.

The sun peaked out and caressed my body. I know I have to do this again, I have to reclaim my body and let the wild woman out of her cage.

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Healing fear

I’m becoming increasingly aware of my fear of failure and its mean posse. I guess I have always seen and heard that little voice, but I haven’t paid much attention to how it really affects my whole life. I consider myself to be a fairly happy person, I have worked hard on transforming different pains, behavioral patterns and traumas that I had been carriying around since I was a child, and I have succeeded in ridding myself of many of them. Yes, I have made great progress in renovating and restoring many areas of what I call my Lalaland, my inner Queendom, and I definitely believe in celebrating that, but the fact remains that when it comes to some areas like finances and physical well being, I have not yet succeeded to fully thrive.

I still carry this paralyzing fear inside me, and it blossoms when I face something outside of my comfort zone? When I meet the lesser loved parts of myself. It can manifest when I have a great idea that I know will benefit the greater good, and I’m ready to send out a proposal to someone, but it includes me making money from it. Suddenly doubt is there, saying stuff like,- Is it really a good idea?  What if they reject it? Does this really benefit the greater good?

I get paralyzed and the result is that I tend to postpone everything. This toxic fear can also manifest when I’m walking around in a bikini, or wearing a tight top or skirt, I can feel that paralyzing self hatred clinging to my thighs, the part of my body I have had the most trouble loving.

As all you beautiful coaches and healers out there probably know, this fear has to do with the lack of self love and self worth, a foundation that you mainly establish between the age of 0-6 years old.

As I watch my son sleep this morning, I ask myself what kind of role model am I to him? I know that I say loving words to him, and encourage him, but do I provide an example for him to follow? My parents are/were self sacrificing spirits with much love for humanity and less for them selves, and that has affected my life profoundly in many ways. So know I’m facing a choice, a choice to teach my son how to go out there and live his dreams, how to transform fear into courage, and lack of self love into unconditional love… or I could teach him to play it safe, by hiding in my cave and letting life pass me by. The choice sounds easy in broad daylight huh? But when you are infected by fear and feel paralyzed, it doesn’t always feel that easy. What I can do is formulate a wish and shoot a rocket of desire.

So here I go..

I want to be able to provide a comfortable life for my son and myself, and I want to love every cell of my body and give it the greatest care and love possible, and allow the world to do so as well .

Feels good to say it out loud and allow myself to fully feel it. I always say awareness is the first step towards transformation, but action is the important second one. I have observed my patterns and I know my triggers, so know the last important step is to make my move.

Problem: When it comes to finances, I know that it’s is mainly the fear of rejection that is stopping me form taking action.

Suggestion: If I was to send out one proposal every other day to different companies and people, not caring if the reject it or not, eventually someone would want to co-create with me, and I would benefit financially form it.

Problem: When It comes to my health and body it is rooted in feeling rejected. I have never felt good enough, and these emotions are stored inside my body and manifest themselves as hormonal imbalances that create weight problems and different pains.

Suggestion: I have been so lost on this one,  and so have the doctors I have visited, I eat well and exercise. I’m starting to think that the solution to all of this might not be to transform my body, but to learn to fully love it as it is and allow others to do that as well. I want to establish a routine to dedicate 10 min a day to touching or brushing my body and saying loving things to it. I also believe it’s important for me to surround myself with healers and coaches to help me on my journey. It ‘s time for the healer to be healed.
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I have a long way to go, but I wouldn’t trade this human experience for anything. Thank you for taking part in my personal Loveolution. I hope that you experience the beautiful feeling of complete unconditional love for yourself and others, you deserve it, we all do.

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How to be happy

The first step to being happy in my book, is being ok with all that is.
That means embracing all your beautiful flaws and shadows, and loving them just as much as you love your radiant smile and light. So my question to you today is:

What parts of you are you hiding form the world and why?
How would it feel if you could embrace and love those sides of you and maybe even let others love them?

It can feel hard to let the world see all of you, I know, I’m struggling with this too. But I have found that the more times I dare to stay open, vulnerable and transparent the easier it gets.

It is important to make a conscious choice a commitment to practice openness, and  to allow yourself to be ok with who you are and all the emotions that you are experiencing in that moment. Letting people see you, all of you without feeling ashamed. You truly are perfect, and when you realize that, other people will too. If they for some reason don’t, it really doesn’t matter anyway, the only thing that does mater is how YOU feel about YOU.

I urge you to make this commitment to yourself today,  you deserve to live life fully and the world deserves to see you shine.

If you find it hard to remember this commitment,  it can help to have something that reminds you of it in your surroundings. I have a rose quartz around my neck, and as I go about my day I often touch this stone and ground myself for a second, reminding myself of who I am and why I’m here.

I want to share this inspiring quote by Jamie Catto with you, this moved me to the core. I’m working on allowing the world to love some parts of my body that have been hard for me to love, and I already see a shift coming.
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Wishing you loads of self love and bubbling joy.

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