The Voice of Truth

We all need that voice that makes us believe in ourselves. Either we find it within ourselves or outside ourselves. It doesn’t matter which one comes first, because one attracts the other.

Once we start listening to the sweet melody singing our praise, our whole being slowly fills up with a warm and beautiful sensation, that is our self worth.


Marry Yourself

Beautiful light. I want to encourage you to a more intimate relationship with yourself. Date yourself, fall deeply In Love with yourself, commit to yourself and marry yourself. As your self worth expands, doubt and obstacles disappear.

If you are curious about Self Marriage and what it is, here is a short description from wikipedia.

Self-marriage or Sologamy is marriage by a person to oneself. It is known as a commitment that values self-love, and self-compassion. Supporters of the practice argue that it leads to a happier life.

Self Dating

The thing about self-dating is that once you truly commit to yourself you instantly want to become the best version of you.

The same expectations that you would have of a partner, you begin asking from yourself.

You care for, cherish, pamper and adore yourself more and more each day, and once you find out how YOU need to be loved, you won’t ever settle for anything less.

You will finally see what a blessing you are, and you will see it in everyone you meet.

OUT OF FUCKS

I recently realized that I’ve been censoring my art out of fear of hurting some people, or not managing to help heal them. I’ve been procrastinating releasing much of my work in fear of how it will be received. Isn’t that crazy?!
Me and my fear went on a date to the forest and we laughed long and hard at how silly we’ve been acting. I know that the healing of this behavior has just begun, but I do feel that something has shifted. It’s like a part of me is out of fucks. It’s true, a part of me is celebrating the lightness of releasing years of agony of how I affect people.

You see, for as long as I can remember, probably ever since I came to this planet, I have been wanting to assist people on their journey, to help remind them of their greatness. This need to assist, has created a lot of complications in my own human experience. I have felt obligated to always give people my best and been deeply concerned if people are offended with me or my art. As a coach, I would tell myself to stop caring what others think and just put out whatever I feel like putting out in our beautiful web of co creations. Sadly I haven’t been listening to my inner reason for a long time. Instead I have been listening to and feeling other peoples reactions.
I am a happy and quite positive person, I have chosen to be this way, it makes me feel good. I can’t help but to see the beauty in everything and most of my art is a reflection of that.
One might think that people like hearing uplifting music and that they enjoy receiving beams of hope, that is true for many people, but not everybody. Think about it, If you are sad, maybe even deeply depressed, do you want to hear how wonderful life is? not always right?
If you are in a deep agony and sit in a dark room dwelling in the deliciousness of this intense and beautiful emotion, do you enjoy someone bursting in and opening the curtains, shouting out “what a wonderful day, look at the sunshine and all the butterflies”? No, you probably don’t. That person might seem annoying and provoking to you, maybe even fake. You might think that that person just doesn’t get the complexity of life, that they are shallow and trite. You might be right, or you might be wrong.
We don’t always know everybody’s story and how they got to be who they are, do we?
If I could have a penny for every time, as a young woman, I’ve heard phrases like” let’s talk when you’re older and when life has played a number on you too, let’s see how positive you are then”. I’ve never felt any resentment towards these people, because I truly know where they are coming from. I feel their pain. See, life has already played a number or two on me. I have lost both my parents, been abused, been abandoned, cried myself to sleep every night for years, been bullied, been sick and felt deeply misplaced and unwanted most parts of my life. Believe me when I say I get it! Life can feel tough sometimes.

Everybody handles these ups and downs in their own way. Personally I feel that everything I have experienced has taught me to see how magical this human experience truly is. I feel that it’s a privilege to be alive and I can’t help but to fall involve with every moment, be it dark or light, and that discovery is what I share with my audience.

I get a lot of beautiful letters, emails, comments from you guys telling me how much you appreciate my art, and how my art has helped you. I want you to know that I appreciate those warm words immensely. But I have finally learned that I can’t depend on these words and I can’t please everyone. I have never gotten any bad response for my art, but I can feel that there are people that my art doesn’t reach, people whom other artist speak to… and you know what, it’s ok! I should not change to cater to them.
Whatever I feel is true to my heart, that is what I should share.

This might sound like an obvious thing to do to you, but it has taken me my whole life to get to this point. Not only regarding my art, but all peoples opinions about me.
I’m just out of fucks…and this is where life begins.

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Wishing you all mental clarity and an open heart. Please feel free to share your own evolution with me. #Loveolution.
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You are worthy

Lately I have been working a lot with my self worth. Now I clearly see that whatever area I have felt displeased with in my life, it has always come down to the fact that I haven’t felt worthy enough. I have also discovered another thing, many times what I have desired has changed once I do feel worthy. I am observing and learning that ultimately what I have been seeking is validation and a feeling of self worth, so many desires simply become redundant once that feeling is achieved some other way. I can give you a example. If I am feeling sensitive and insecure about my physical appearance, I might desire compliments from the opposite sex, but once I feel fabulous about myself and really dig myself, those compliments are no longer what I desire or need from a man. Their words might be appreciated as beautiful sprinkles on my cake, but the creamy gooey stuff in the middle is provided by yours truly.

I have seen my own and others desires shift radically once they find a way to feel worthy in the area they desire. It makes me think that we need to focus more on self worth in our society.

You are worthy of all you desires, how does that statement feel to you? You might have a whole arsenal of resistance coming up, bombarding you with negativity, or you might hear a bunch of cheerleaders scream “Hell Yeah!”.
Whatever your response is, I want to invite you to try an exercise with me.

Stand in front of the mirror, gaze deeply into your eyes and say this out loud:

I am worthy of everything I desire.

Say it 3 times (or as many as you desire).

Repeat this as often as you can, like every time you brush your teeth, or passa a mirror.
Tell yourself that you are worthy. Slowly, slowly you’ll feel empowered and you’ll begin to see what it is your heart truly desires.
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If you feel like sharing your self worth progress or other inspiration on this topic, please use the hashtag #YOUREWORTHIT on social media.

Happy Healing, You’re worth it!
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Teatime with Fear.

This past new moon fear payed me a visit, or more accurately, I invited her. I’m happy I did though, because this visit brought me lots of clarity.

I have carried many fears inside this body over the years, and still have some left, fear of what others think of me, fear of letting go, fear of being a bad mother, fear of being a bad partner, fear of failing at my life purpose, fear of not having been a good enough daughter, or a good enough friend, fear of not honoring my heart and my dreams. All in all I have had a fear of failing at this human experience.

When I type it out like this, it sounds silly, doesn’t it?
How can one fail at being human? The answer that pure logic delivers to me, is that you can’t. It’s simply impossible. Being human means being flawed, that is the human perfection.

“Being human means being flawed, that is the human perfection.”

So what I am uncovering is something that I think I have known all along.
I am perfect, my fears are beautiful teachers that come to teach me that there are some areas inside me that need more love, and to show me the magic I possess in creating a beautiful experience for myself and others on this planet. I know  that in this reality, on planet Tellus, without darkness there really is no light. We must embrace both to see the other. I’m not saying you have to grow through pain, you don’t, you can definitely grow through love, and you should. I’m telling you that when you embrace your fears and start seeing them as caring friends, then you start feeling that they aren’t that bad, It becomes more pleasant and interesting when they visit.
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Sometimes they become like distant relatives that come very seldom, and that is nice too, but when they do come, sit with them, be present,  ask them questions, brew them a cup of tea and have a heart to hearth conversation. I am sure you’ll learn something beautiful about yourself, I know I did.

Sending you all lots of love and light.

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Goddess Love Thyself

IMG_2120Everyone who knows me, know that one of my strongest desires is to help people see their own greatness. I myself have struggled with low self-esteem and lack of self-respect, and I still have a lot of work to do, but I have managed to shift some heavy beliefs. I now see my worth.

I have reconnected with my roots, with the earth and the divine feminine living inside me. I feel so much respect and admiration for my inner Goddess now. I feel I want to honor her with every decision I make. I admit that I still go on auto pilot sometimes, but it’s becoming increasingly hard to do so. She roars and speaks her soul, shouting at me when I make choices out of fear. I have a lot of growing to do, but I am committed to keep working on honoring myself everyday.

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Why I am sharing this with you right now, is because I want you to ask yourself these questions:
1. Do I love myself? 
2. Do I feel that the people around me are loving and kind to me?
3. Do I feel I get the respect I deserve?
4. Am I satisfied with my everyday experience?
5. Do I think that I am beautiful on every level there is?

Sit with these questions for a minute, breathe deeply and see what answers come up.
If you answer No to any question, you like many of us, have some healing to do. Don’t worry, you will see how magnificent you are and what greatness you deserve. Just set the intention to love yourself more, and you’ve just begun a magical ride dear.

I want to be there for you on your journey, so I have decided to start focusing more energy on writing, coaching and creating art focused on Self Love. This is all part of the #Loveolution, I truly believe that you have to Love yourself before you can Love all, when you feel good, you do good with ease.

I wish you lots of happiness and clarity.
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The Wild Woman

Since I am borrowing a friends cottage on the country side this week, I have been doing some earthing and reconnecting with my true self. Digging deep I found this wild woman inside me who is just yearning to dance naked in the rain. Today the opportunity presented itself. The rain started pouring and I could run outside in my birthday suit and dance away. Every drop on my skin felt like pure magic. But I could also feel how a toxic fear started to speak, what if somebody sees me? What if they think my body is ugly?…. The yearning took over, I just had to be naked in the rain, touching mother earth with my feet, letting the heavens kiss my skin. Fear disappeared, questions arose, why haven’t I done this earlier? Why is my nakedness so shameful? It feels so freeing to be naked.

The sun peaked out and caressed my body. I know I have to do this again, I have to reclaim my body and let the wild woman out of her cage.

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Healing fear

I’m becoming increasingly aware of my fear of failure and its mean posse. I guess I have always seen and heard that little voice, but I haven’t paid much attention to how it really affects my whole life. I consider myself to be a fairly happy person, I have worked hard on transforming different pains, behavioral patterns and traumas that I had been carriying around since I was a child, and I have succeeded in ridding myself of many of them. Yes, I have made great progress in renovating and restoring many areas of what I call my Lalaland, my inner Queendom, and I definitely believe in celebrating that, but the fact remains that when it comes to some areas like finances and physical well being, I have not yet succeeded to fully thrive.

I still carry this paralyzing fear inside me, and it blossoms when I face something outside of my comfort zone? When I meet the lesser loved parts of myself. It can manifest when I have a great idea that I know will benefit the greater good, and I’m ready to send out a proposal to someone, but it includes me making money from it. Suddenly doubt is there, saying stuff like,- Is it really a good idea?  What if they reject it? Does this really benefit the greater good?

I get paralyzed and the result is that I tend to postpone everything. This toxic fear can also manifest when I’m walking around in a bikini, or wearing a tight top or skirt, I can feel that paralyzing self hatred clinging to my thighs, the part of my body I have had the most trouble loving.

As all you beautiful coaches and healers out there probably know, this fear has to do with the lack of self love and self worth, a foundation that you mainly establish between the age of 0-6 years old.

As I watch my son sleep this morning, I ask myself what kind of role model am I to him? I know that I say loving words to him, and encourage him, but do I provide an example for him to follow? My parents are/were self sacrificing spirits with much love for humanity and less for them selves, and that has affected my life profoundly in many ways. So know I’m facing a choice, a choice to teach my son how to go out there and live his dreams, how to transform fear into courage, and lack of self love into unconditional love… or I could teach him to play it safe, by hiding in my cave and letting life pass me by. The choice sounds easy in broad daylight huh? But when you are infected by fear and feel paralyzed, it doesn’t always feel that easy. What I can do is formulate a wish and shoot a rocket of desire.

So here I go..

I want to be able to provide a comfortable life for my son and myself, and I want to love every cell of my body and give it the greatest care and love possible, and allow the world to do so as well .

Feels good to say it out loud and allow myself to fully feel it. I always say awareness is the first step towards transformation, but action is the important second one. I have observed my patterns and I know my triggers, so know the last important step is to make my move.

Problem: When it comes to finances, I know that it’s is mainly the fear of rejection that is stopping me form taking action.

Suggestion: If I was to send out one proposal every other day to different companies and people, not caring if the reject it or not, eventually someone would want to co-create with me, and I would benefit financially form it.

Problem: When It comes to my health and body it is rooted in feeling rejected. I have never felt good enough, and these emotions are stored inside my body and manifest themselves as hormonal imbalances that create weight problems and different pains.

Suggestion: I have been so lost on this one,  and so have the doctors I have visited, I eat well and exercise. I’m starting to think that the solution to all of this might not be to transform my body, but to learn to fully love it as it is and allow others to do that as well. I want to establish a routine to dedicate 10 min a day to touching or brushing my body and saying loving things to it. I also believe it’s important for me to surround myself with healers and coaches to help me on my journey. It ‘s time for the healer to be healed.
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I have a long way to go, but I wouldn’t trade this human experience for anything. Thank you for taking part in my personal Loveolution. I hope that you experience the beautiful feeling of complete unconditional love for yourself and others, you deserve it, we all do.

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How to be happy

The first step to being happy in my book, is being ok with all that is.
That means embracing all your beautiful flaws and shadows, and loving them just as much as you love your radiant smile and light. So my question to you today is:

What parts of you are you hiding form the world and why?
How would it feel if you could embrace and love those sides of you and maybe even let others love them?

It can feel hard to let the world see all of you, I know, I’m struggling with this too. But I have found that the more times I dare to stay open, vulnerable and transparent the easier it gets.

It is important to make a conscious choice a commitment to practice openness, and  to allow yourself to be ok with who you are and all the emotions that you are experiencing in that moment. Letting people see you, all of you without feeling ashamed. You truly are perfect, and when you realize that, other people will too. If they for some reason don’t, it really doesn’t matter anyway, the only thing that does mater is how YOU feel about YOU.

I urge you to make this commitment to yourself today,  you deserve to live life fully and the world deserves to see you shine.

If you find it hard to remember this commitment,  it can help to have something that reminds you of it in your surroundings. I have a rose quartz around my neck, and as I go about my day I often touch this stone and ground myself for a second, reminding myself of who I am and why I’m here.

I want to share this inspiring quote by Jamie Catto with you, this moved me to the core. I’m working on allowing the world to love some parts of my body that have been hard for me to love, and I already see a shift coming.
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Wishing you loads of self love and bubbling joy.

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