Serving Love

I often say that what I’m here to do is to serve love. A friend of mine suggested that I clarify what I mean by that.

How I practice serving love, is by feeling in to what love would do. It can be regarding my life path, relationships, or just a specific item I’m considering buying in the supermarket. Everything we do has an effect on all that is.

See It’s all about love, everything. I don’t mean romantic love, but the huge overwhelming sensation of bliss, euphoria, gratitude, peace and joy that resides within you. That is who you are, that is home.

Our society has created countless products, services to try to mimic the sensation of love. But the truth is there is nothing you have to do, be or have to feel love. You are Love. Love resides in the vehicle that you call your body.

So asking yourself “what would love do” is asking yourself, what would I, you, we do? trippy? ok let’s let the mind explain it, this should be fun.

Humans have always strived for approval, for a sensation of righteousness, doing what is “right” has made us feel good, or at least so we think. The thing with outer approval is that it will ultimately leave us shattered and empty. Because there are as many “right ways” as there are beings on this planet. So how do you find what’s right for you? Well, when you ask what love would do, you tune into that goodness that resides within you, the part of you who loves everybody, the part of you who remembers who you are. This part, let’s call it your heart will guide you to YOUR path.

How this works practically, is for example if you are about to embark on a new journey in your career, and something in your gut isn’t sure. Then ask yourself “What would love do?”, and the answer will appear quite quickly, unless you let your mind go bananas with it, don’t do that, just ask and let it go, the answer will come.

What you are doing with this practice, is establishing a communication between the heart and the mind. With time and practice you will quickly feel what resonates and what doesn’t.
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The mind is constantly gathering information and will have great reference points for you to use if you just give it the direction to what you wish to do. Like I wish to serve love in the best way I can. I want to do things, feel feelings, think thoughts that serve myself, humanity and all that is.  When you give the mind a direction like that, it begins to assist you in making more loving choices. See the mind can be quite clever, because deep inside it knows what love is. The mind is and has always been an old companion to your heart.

This is a journey not a destination. I’m not constantly happy or acting like a saint in every moment. That’s not the point with this practice. Being Human means that we have the ability (and gift) to detach ourselves from who we really are and experience contrasts like pain, sadness, anger etc. Those are all a wonderful part of our guidance system and need to be valued. The point with this practice is to give yourself permission to follow your bliss and still the longing of your heart.

Whatever I’m doing I try to check in with myself to see where I’m headed. For instance when I’m on stage performing, I always ask what the most loving thing I can do in this moment is. I want to serve my audience and I want to serve and honor my being. The answers I receive differs depending on the day and vibration of the crowd, sometimes it’s says give more light and connect, sometimes it says pull back and go within and show your vulnerability. The heart senses every heart in the audience and can better feel into what the greater good in this situation would be. The same goes for shopping, the heart feels what I need and what is good for the planet, and they always coincide. So my job is quite easy, my job is to surrender, to allow this body and mind to be of service to my soul, to all that is, and to Love.

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May your days be full of clarity, peace and joy.
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OUT OF FUCKS

I recently realized that I’ve been censoring my art out of fear of hurting some people, or not managing to help heal them. I’ve been procrastinating releasing much of my work in fear of how it will be received. Isn’t that crazy?!
Me and my fear went on a date to the forest and we laughed long and hard at how silly we’ve been acting. I know that the healing of this behavior has just begun, but I do feel that something has shifted. It’s like a part of me is out of fucks. It’s true, a part of me is celebrating the lightness of releasing years of agony of how I affect people.

You see, for as long as I can remember, probably ever since I came to this planet, I have been wanting to assist people on their journey, to help remind them of their greatness. This need to assist, has created a lot of complications in my own human experience. I have felt obligated to always give people my best and been deeply concerned if people are offended with me or my art. As a coach, I would tell myself to stop caring what others think and just put out whatever I feel like putting out in our beautiful web of co creations. Sadly I haven’t been listening to my inner reason for a long time. Instead I have been listening to and feeling other peoples reactions.
I am a happy and quite positive person, I have chosen to be this way, it makes me feel good. I can’t help but to see the beauty in everything and most of my art is a reflection of that.
One might think that people like hearing uplifting music and that they enjoy receiving beams of hope, that is true for many people, but not everybody. Think about it, If you are sad, maybe even deeply depressed, do you want to hear how wonderful life is? not always right?
If you are in a deep agony and sit in a dark room dwelling in the deliciousness of this intense and beautiful emotion, do you enjoy someone bursting in and opening the curtains, shouting out “what a wonderful day, look at the sunshine and all the butterflies”? No, you probably don’t. That person might seem annoying and provoking to you, maybe even fake. You might think that that person just doesn’t get the complexity of life, that they are shallow and trite. You might be right, or you might be wrong.
We don’t always know everybody’s story and how they got to be who they are, do we?
If I could have a penny for every time, as a young woman, I’ve heard phrases like” let’s talk when you’re older and when life has played a number on you too, let’s see how positive you are then”. I’ve never felt any resentment towards these people, because I truly know where they are coming from. I feel their pain. See, life has already played a number or two on me. I have lost both my parents, been abused, been abandoned, cried myself to sleep every night for years, been bullied, been sick and felt deeply misplaced and unwanted most parts of my life. Believe me when I say I get it! Life can feel tough sometimes.

Everybody handles these ups and downs in their own way. Personally I feel that everything I have experienced has taught me to see how magical this human experience truly is. I feel that it’s a privilege to be alive and I can’t help but to fall involve with every moment, be it dark or light, and that discovery is what I share with my audience.

I get a lot of beautiful letters, emails, comments from you guys telling me how much you appreciate my art, and how my art has helped you. I want you to know that I appreciate those warm words immensely. But I have finally learned that I can’t depend on these words and I can’t please everyone. I have never gotten any bad response for my art, but I can feel that there are people that my art doesn’t reach, people whom other artist speak to… and you know what, it’s ok! I should not change to cater to them.
Whatever I feel is true to my heart, that is what I should share.

This might sound like an obvious thing to do to you, but it has taken me my whole life to get to this point. Not only regarding my art, but all peoples opinions about me.
I’m just out of fucks…and this is where life begins.

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Wishing you all mental clarity and an open heart. Please feel free to share your own evolution with me. #Loveolution.
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