Serving Love

I often say that what I’m here to do is to serve love. A friend of mine suggested that I clarify what I mean by that.

How I practice serving love, is by feeling in to what love would do. It can be regarding my life path, relationships, or just a specific item I’m considering buying in the supermarket. Everything we do has an effect on all that is.

See It’s all about love, everything. I don’t mean romantic love, but the huge overwhelming sensation of bliss, euphoria, gratitude, peace and joy that resides within you. That is who you are, that is home.

Our society has created countless products, services to try to mimic the sensation of love. But the truth is there is nothing you have to do, be or have to feel love. You are Love. Love resides in the vehicle that you call your body.

So asking yourself “what would love do” is asking yourself, what would I, you, we do? trippy? ok let’s let the mind explain it, this should be fun.

Humans have always strived for approval, for a sensation of righteousness, doing what is “right” has made us feel good, or at least so we think. The thing with outer approval is that it will ultimately leave us shattered and empty. Because there are as many “right ways” as there are beings on this planet. So how do you find what’s right for you? Well, when you ask what love would do, you tune into that goodness that resides within you, the part of you who loves everybody, the part of you who remembers who you are. This part, let’s call it your heart will guide you to YOUR path.

How this works practically, is for example if you are about to embark on a new journey in your career, and something in your gut isn’t sure. Then ask yourself “What would love do?”, and the answer will appear quite quickly, unless you let your mind go bananas with it, don’t do that, just ask and let it go, the answer will come.

What you are doing with this practice, is establishing a communication between the heart and the mind. With time and practice you will quickly feel what resonates and what doesn’t.
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The mind is constantly gathering information and will have great reference points for you to use if you just give it the direction to what you wish to do. Like I wish to serve love in the best way I can. I want to do things, feel feelings, think thoughts that serve myself, humanity and all that is.  When you give the mind a direction like that, it begins to assist you in making more loving choices. See the mind can be quite clever, because deep inside it knows what love is. The mind is and has always been an old companion to your heart.

This is a journey not a destination. I’m not constantly happy or acting like a saint in every moment. That’s not the point with this practice. Being Human means that we have the ability (and gift) to detach ourselves from who we really are and experience contrasts like pain, sadness, anger etc. Those are all a wonderful part of our guidance system and need to be valued. The point with this practice is to give yourself permission to follow your bliss and still the longing of your heart.

Whatever I’m doing I try to check in with myself to see where I’m headed. For instance when I’m on stage performing, I always ask what the most loving thing I can do in this moment is. I want to serve my audience and I want to serve and honor my being. The answers I receive differs depending on the day and vibration of the crowd, sometimes it’s says give more light and connect, sometimes it says pull back and go within and show your vulnerability. The heart senses every heart in the audience and can better feel into what the greater good in this situation would be. The same goes for shopping, the heart feels what I need and what is good for the planet, and they always coincide. So my job is quite easy, my job is to surrender, to allow this body and mind to be of service to my soul, to all that is, and to Love.

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May your days be full of clarity, peace and joy.
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Nourish Your Dreams

We have to take our ideas and dreams where we can find support for them. All the plants and trees turn to the sun for nourishment, without it they can not grow. Your dreams and ideas need proper nourishment to blossom. So make sure to surround yourself with people who believe in you and your dreams.

#DreamsAreMeantToComeTrue

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Sending you love and light.

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What’s your purpose?

I truly believe that we all deserve to live our dreams. But most of us have a few inner blockages to get past to be able to do that. I will record a few videos that I hope will be helpful on your journey to live your dreams.

First up. I’ll talk a bit about how we can find out true purpose.

#DreamsAreMeantToComeTrue

Sending you lots of love and light!
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OUT OF FUCKS

I recently realized that I’ve been censoring my art out of fear of hurting some people, or not managing to help heal them. I’ve been procrastinating releasing much of my work in fear of how it will be received. Isn’t that crazy?!
Me and my fear went on a date to the forest and we laughed long and hard at how silly we’ve been acting. I know that the healing of this behavior has just begun, but I do feel that something has shifted. It’s like a part of me is out of fucks. It’s true, a part of me is celebrating the lightness of releasing years of agony of how I affect people.

You see, for as long as I can remember, probably ever since I came to this planet, I have been wanting to assist people on their journey, to help remind them of their greatness. This need to assist, has created a lot of complications in my own human experience. I have felt obligated to always give people my best and been deeply concerned if people are offended with me or my art. As a coach, I would tell myself to stop caring what others think and just put out whatever I feel like putting out in our beautiful web of co creations. Sadly I haven’t been listening to my inner reason for a long time. Instead I have been listening to and feeling other peoples reactions.
I am a happy and quite positive person, I have chosen to be this way, it makes me feel good. I can’t help but to see the beauty in everything and most of my art is a reflection of that.
One might think that people like hearing uplifting music and that they enjoy receiving beams of hope, that is true for many people, but not everybody. Think about it, If you are sad, maybe even deeply depressed, do you want to hear how wonderful life is? not always right?
If you are in a deep agony and sit in a dark room dwelling in the deliciousness of this intense and beautiful emotion, do you enjoy someone bursting in and opening the curtains, shouting out “what a wonderful day, look at the sunshine and all the butterflies”? No, you probably don’t. That person might seem annoying and provoking to you, maybe even fake. You might think that that person just doesn’t get the complexity of life, that they are shallow and trite. You might be right, or you might be wrong.
We don’t always know everybody’s story and how they got to be who they are, do we?
If I could have a penny for every time, as a young woman, I’ve heard phrases like” let’s talk when you’re older and when life has played a number on you too, let’s see how positive you are then”. I’ve never felt any resentment towards these people, because I truly know where they are coming from. I feel their pain. See, life has already played a number or two on me. I have lost both my parents, been abused, been abandoned, cried myself to sleep every night for years, been bullied, been sick and felt deeply misplaced and unwanted most parts of my life. Believe me when I say I get it! Life can feel tough sometimes.

Everybody handles these ups and downs in their own way. Personally I feel that everything I have experienced has taught me to see how magical this human experience truly is. I feel that it’s a privilege to be alive and I can’t help but to fall involve with every moment, be it dark or light, and that discovery is what I share with my audience.

I get a lot of beautiful letters, emails, comments from you guys telling me how much you appreciate my art, and how my art has helped you. I want you to know that I appreciate those warm words immensely. But I have finally learned that I can’t depend on these words and I can’t please everyone. I have never gotten any bad response for my art, but I can feel that there are people that my art doesn’t reach, people whom other artist speak to… and you know what, it’s ok! I should not change to cater to them.
Whatever I feel is true to my heart, that is what I should share.

This might sound like an obvious thing to do to you, but it has taken me my whole life to get to this point. Not only regarding my art, but all peoples opinions about me.
I’m just out of fucks…and this is where life begins.

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Wishing you all mental clarity and an open heart. Please feel free to share your own evolution with me. #Loveolution.
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Teatime with Fear.

This past new moon fear payed me a visit, or more accurately, I invited her. I’m happy I did though, because this visit brought me lots of clarity.

I have carried many fears inside this body over the years, and still have some left, fear of what others think of me, fear of letting go, fear of being a bad mother, fear of being a bad partner, fear of failing at my life purpose, fear of not having been a good enough daughter, or a good enough friend, fear of not honoring my heart and my dreams. All in all I have had a fear of failing at this human experience.

When I type it out like this, it sounds silly, doesn’t it?
How can one fail at being human? The answer that pure logic delivers to me, is that you can’t. It’s simply impossible. Being human means being flawed, that is the human perfection.

“Being human means being flawed, that is the human perfection.”

So what I am uncovering is something that I think I have known all along.
I am perfect, my fears are beautiful teachers that come to teach me that there are some areas inside me that need more love, and to show me the magic I possess in creating a beautiful experience for myself and others on this planet. I know  that in this reality, on planet Tellus, without darkness there really is no light. We must embrace both to see the other. I’m not saying you have to grow through pain, you don’t, you can definitely grow through love, and you should. I’m telling you that when you embrace your fears and start seeing them as caring friends, then you start feeling that they aren’t that bad, It becomes more pleasant and interesting when they visit.
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Sometimes they become like distant relatives that come very seldom, and that is nice too, but when they do come, sit with them, be present,  ask them questions, brew them a cup of tea and have a heart to hearth conversation. I am sure you’ll learn something beautiful about yourself, I know I did.

Sending you all lots of love and light.

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Morning Rituals

The way we start our morning sets the tone for the whole day. I believe that we all could benefit from having a solid morning ritual. A space for ourselves so we can nurture our soul and mind. My morning ritual consists of writing a gratitude letter to all that is, thanking the universe for everything I have, and also for the things I want to have.

This is a great way of focusing on appreciation and at the same time remembering my intentions and dreams. I do this while I drink a smoothie and look out the window. Sometimes I use my favorite vintage binoculars and admire some birds and trees from a far, marveling over the beauty of our planet. I usually have a favorite crystal that I hold while I do some deep breathing and contemplate.
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Here are a few tips on what you can do as a morning ritual.

1. Practice deep breathing for 3-5 min before enjoying a nice breakfast.
2. Write down your intentions for the day and how you would like to feel today.
3. Do a (quick) self massage, start with your head and end with your feet.
4. Have a smoothie while looking out the window.
5. Dance to your favorite song.
6. Repet your favorite affirmation 10 times in the mirror before you go about your day.

If you don’t already have a great routine that works for you, then I hope you’ll find something you like here. Remember that when you invest time in yourself, you amplify your wellbeing, and when you feel good you do good.

#Loveolution
Sending you all warm hugs
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Trust

When I look at how I live my life today I can clearly see how limited my beliefs are. I’m not giving myself even close to what I desire, nor am I giving others what I am capable of giving. Now don’t you worry, I’m not putting myself down or anything like that, just observing where I’m at in my belief system. I need to compare my beliefs to my desires and adjust accordingly. What I want more of in my life right now is trust. I know that I can create wonders under the influence of trust. It doesn’t even matter if I fail, the most important thing is to carry trust in my heart.  It’s as simple as that, If I want to change my life I must believe it to achieve it.

I encourage you to look at your life today and ask yourself this

What does my heart desire? Do I TRUST that I can have it?

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Unaccepted

There is a person in my surrounding that never shows me any love, and always judges me. This person loudly disapproves of my lifestyle and always tries to change me. I call this person my Guru, because every time we interact I learn something new about myself and my pains. When resistance hits me bad, I take a deep breath and I try to relate to the emotion or person causing me to lose it. One thing that always helps me find balance, is to remind myself that deep inside I know that everything is a divine appointment, and that we truly are one family. So when I meet the “Gurus” of my reality I try to remember that they have a treasure waiting for me, and I do my best to focus on opening my heart and listen to what they are trying to teach me.
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It also helps to know that there are people out there who love and support me just the way I am. I hope you have that too?
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Healing fear

I’m becoming increasingly aware of my fear of failure and its mean posse. I guess I have always seen and heard that little voice, but I haven’t paid much attention to how it really affects my whole life. I consider myself to be a fairly happy person, I have worked hard on transforming different pains, behavioral patterns and traumas that I had been carriying around since I was a child, and I have succeeded in ridding myself of many of them. Yes, I have made great progress in renovating and restoring many areas of what I call my Lalaland, my inner Queendom, and I definitely believe in celebrating that, but the fact remains that when it comes to some areas like finances and physical well being, I have not yet succeeded to fully thrive.

I still carry this paralyzing fear inside me, and it blossoms when I face something outside of my comfort zone? When I meet the lesser loved parts of myself. It can manifest when I have a great idea that I know will benefit the greater good, and I’m ready to send out a proposal to someone, but it includes me making money from it. Suddenly doubt is there, saying stuff like,- Is it really a good idea?  What if they reject it? Does this really benefit the greater good?

I get paralyzed and the result is that I tend to postpone everything. This toxic fear can also manifest when I’m walking around in a bikini, or wearing a tight top or skirt, I can feel that paralyzing self hatred clinging to my thighs, the part of my body I have had the most trouble loving.

As all you beautiful coaches and healers out there probably know, this fear has to do with the lack of self love and self worth, a foundation that you mainly establish between the age of 0-6 years old.

As I watch my son sleep this morning, I ask myself what kind of role model am I to him? I know that I say loving words to him, and encourage him, but do I provide an example for him to follow? My parents are/were self sacrificing spirits with much love for humanity and less for them selves, and that has affected my life profoundly in many ways. So know I’m facing a choice, a choice to teach my son how to go out there and live his dreams, how to transform fear into courage, and lack of self love into unconditional love… or I could teach him to play it safe, by hiding in my cave and letting life pass me by. The choice sounds easy in broad daylight huh? But when you are infected by fear and feel paralyzed, it doesn’t always feel that easy. What I can do is formulate a wish and shoot a rocket of desire.

So here I go..

I want to be able to provide a comfortable life for my son and myself, and I want to love every cell of my body and give it the greatest care and love possible, and allow the world to do so as well .

Feels good to say it out loud and allow myself to fully feel it. I always say awareness is the first step towards transformation, but action is the important second one. I have observed my patterns and I know my triggers, so know the last important step is to make my move.

Problem: When it comes to finances, I know that it’s is mainly the fear of rejection that is stopping me form taking action.

Suggestion: If I was to send out one proposal every other day to different companies and people, not caring if the reject it or not, eventually someone would want to co-create with me, and I would benefit financially form it.

Problem: When It comes to my health and body it is rooted in feeling rejected. I have never felt good enough, and these emotions are stored inside my body and manifest themselves as hormonal imbalances that create weight problems and different pains.

Suggestion: I have been so lost on this one,  and so have the doctors I have visited, I eat well and exercise. I’m starting to think that the solution to all of this might not be to transform my body, but to learn to fully love it as it is and allow others to do that as well. I want to establish a routine to dedicate 10 min a day to touching or brushing my body and saying loving things to it. I also believe it’s important for me to surround myself with healers and coaches to help me on my journey. It ‘s time for the healer to be healed.
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I have a long way to go, but I wouldn’t trade this human experience for anything. Thank you for taking part in my personal Loveolution. I hope that you experience the beautiful feeling of complete unconditional love for yourself and others, you deserve it, we all do.

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