Serving Love

I often say that what I’m here to do is to serve love. A friend of mine suggested that I clarify what I mean by that.

How I practice serving love, is by feeling in to what love would do. It can be regarding my life path, relationships, or just a specific item I’m considering buying in the supermarket. Everything we do has an effect on all that is.

See It’s all about love, everything. I don’t mean romantic love, but the huge overwhelming sensation of bliss, euphoria, gratitude, peace and joy that resides within you. That is who you are, that is home.

Our society has created countless products, services to try to mimic the sensation of love. But the truth is there is nothing you have to do, be or have to feel love. You are Love. Love resides in the vehicle that you call your body.

So asking yourself “what would love do” is asking yourself, what would I, you, we do? trippy? ok let’s let the mind explain it, this should be fun.

Humans have always strived for approval, for a sensation of righteousness, doing what is “right” has made us feel good, or at least so we think. The thing with outer approval is that it will ultimately leave us shattered and empty. Because there are as many “right ways” as there are beings on this planet. So how do you find what’s right for you? Well, when you ask what love would do, you tune into that goodness that resides within you, the part of you who loves everybody, the part of you who remembers who you are. This part, let’s call it your heart will guide you to YOUR path.

How this works practically, is for example if you are about to embark on a new journey in your career, and something in your gut isn’t sure. Then ask yourself “What would love do?”, and the answer will appear quite quickly, unless you let your mind go bananas with it, don’t do that, just ask and let it go, the answer will come.

What you are doing with this practice, is establishing a communication between the heart and the mind. With time and practice you will quickly feel what resonates and what doesn’t.
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The mind is constantly gathering information and will have great reference points for you to use if you just give it the direction to what you wish to do. Like I wish to serve love in the best way I can. I want to do things, feel feelings, think thoughts that serve myself, humanity and all that is.  When you give the mind a direction like that, it begins to assist you in making more loving choices. See the mind can be quite clever, because deep inside it knows what love is. The mind is and has always been an old companion to your heart.

This is a journey not a destination. I’m not constantly happy or acting like a saint in every moment. That’s not the point with this practice. Being Human means that we have the ability (and gift) to detach ourselves from who we really are and experience contrasts like pain, sadness, anger etc. Those are all a wonderful part of our guidance system and need to be valued. The point with this practice is to give yourself permission to follow your bliss and still the longing of your heart.

Whatever I’m doing I try to check in with myself to see where I’m headed. For instance when I’m on stage performing, I always ask what the most loving thing I can do in this moment is. I want to serve my audience and I want to serve and honor my being. The answers I receive differs depending on the day and vibration of the crowd, sometimes it’s says give more light and connect, sometimes it says pull back and go within and show your vulnerability. The heart senses every heart in the audience and can better feel into what the greater good in this situation would be. The same goes for shopping, the heart feels what I need and what is good for the planet, and they always coincide. So my job is quite easy, my job is to surrender, to allow this body and mind to be of service to my soul, to all that is, and to Love.

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May your days be full of clarity, peace and joy.
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The Wild Woman

Since I am borrowing a friends cottage on the country side this week, I have been doing some earthing and reconnecting with my true self. Digging deep I found this wild woman inside me who is just yearning to dance naked in the rain. Today the opportunity presented itself. The rain started pouring and I could run outside in my birthday suit and dance away. Every drop on my skin felt like pure magic. But I could also feel how a toxic fear started to speak, what if somebody sees me? What if they think my body is ugly?…. The yearning took over, I just had to be naked in the rain, touching mother earth with my feet, letting the heavens kiss my skin. Fear disappeared, questions arose, why haven’t I done this earlier? Why is my nakedness so shameful? It feels so freeing to be naked.

The sun peaked out and caressed my body. I know I have to do this again, I have to reclaim my body and let the wild woman out of her cage.

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Trust

When I look at how I live my life today I can clearly see how limited my beliefs are. I’m not giving myself even close to what I desire, nor am I giving others what I am capable of giving. Now don’t you worry, I’m not putting myself down or anything like that, just observing where I’m at in my belief system. I need to compare my beliefs to my desires and adjust accordingly. What I want more of in my life right now is trust. I know that I can create wonders under the influence of trust. It doesn’t even matter if I fail, the most important thing is to carry trust in my heart.  It’s as simple as that, If I want to change my life I must believe it to achieve it.

I encourage you to look at your life today and ask yourself this

What does my heart desire? Do I TRUST that I can have it?

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Unaccepted

There is a person in my surrounding that never shows me any love, and always judges me. This person loudly disapproves of my lifestyle and always tries to change me. I call this person my Guru, because every time we interact I learn something new about myself and my pains. When resistance hits me bad, I take a deep breath and I try to relate to the emotion or person causing me to lose it. One thing that always helps me find balance, is to remind myself that deep inside I know that everything is a divine appointment, and that we truly are one family. So when I meet the “Gurus” of my reality I try to remember that they have a treasure waiting for me, and I do my best to focus on opening my heart and listen to what they are trying to teach me.
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It also helps to know that there are people out there who love and support me just the way I am. I hope you have that too?
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Healing fear

I’m becoming increasingly aware of my fear of failure and its mean posse. I guess I have always seen and heard that little voice, but I haven’t paid much attention to how it really affects my whole life. I consider myself to be a fairly happy person, I have worked hard on transforming different pains, behavioral patterns and traumas that I had been carriying around since I was a child, and I have succeeded in ridding myself of many of them. Yes, I have made great progress in renovating and restoring many areas of what I call my Lalaland, my inner Queendom, and I definitely believe in celebrating that, but the fact remains that when it comes to some areas like finances and physical well being, I have not yet succeeded to fully thrive.

I still carry this paralyzing fear inside me, and it blossoms when I face something outside of my comfort zone? When I meet the lesser loved parts of myself. It can manifest when I have a great idea that I know will benefit the greater good, and I’m ready to send out a proposal to someone, but it includes me making money from it. Suddenly doubt is there, saying stuff like,- Is it really a good idea?  What if they reject it? Does this really benefit the greater good?

I get paralyzed and the result is that I tend to postpone everything. This toxic fear can also manifest when I’m walking around in a bikini, or wearing a tight top or skirt, I can feel that paralyzing self hatred clinging to my thighs, the part of my body I have had the most trouble loving.

As all you beautiful coaches and healers out there probably know, this fear has to do with the lack of self love and self worth, a foundation that you mainly establish between the age of 0-6 years old.

As I watch my son sleep this morning, I ask myself what kind of role model am I to him? I know that I say loving words to him, and encourage him, but do I provide an example for him to follow? My parents are/were self sacrificing spirits with much love for humanity and less for them selves, and that has affected my life profoundly in many ways. So know I’m facing a choice, a choice to teach my son how to go out there and live his dreams, how to transform fear into courage, and lack of self love into unconditional love… or I could teach him to play it safe, by hiding in my cave and letting life pass me by. The choice sounds easy in broad daylight huh? But when you are infected by fear and feel paralyzed, it doesn’t always feel that easy. What I can do is formulate a wish and shoot a rocket of desire.

So here I go..

I want to be able to provide a comfortable life for my son and myself, and I want to love every cell of my body and give it the greatest care and love possible, and allow the world to do so as well .

Feels good to say it out loud and allow myself to fully feel it. I always say awareness is the first step towards transformation, but action is the important second one. I have observed my patterns and I know my triggers, so know the last important step is to make my move.

Problem: When it comes to finances, I know that it’s is mainly the fear of rejection that is stopping me form taking action.

Suggestion: If I was to send out one proposal every other day to different companies and people, not caring if the reject it or not, eventually someone would want to co-create with me, and I would benefit financially form it.

Problem: When It comes to my health and body it is rooted in feeling rejected. I have never felt good enough, and these emotions are stored inside my body and manifest themselves as hormonal imbalances that create weight problems and different pains.

Suggestion: I have been so lost on this one,  and so have the doctors I have visited, I eat well and exercise. I’m starting to think that the solution to all of this might not be to transform my body, but to learn to fully love it as it is and allow others to do that as well. I want to establish a routine to dedicate 10 min a day to touching or brushing my body and saying loving things to it. I also believe it’s important for me to surround myself with healers and coaches to help me on my journey. It ‘s time for the healer to be healed.
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I have a long way to go, but I wouldn’t trade this human experience for anything. Thank you for taking part in my personal Loveolution. I hope that you experience the beautiful feeling of complete unconditional love for yourself and others, you deserve it, we all do.

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Authenticity

Lately I have had this urge to share everything with everyone. I think I know what it is my soul is craving, it is authenticity. Meeting people in complete honesty, allowing everyone to see me and allowing myself to be seen. I am longing to be loved for who I am without veils or filters and I am longing to love without walls and borders. This longing has led me to have the most amazing interactions with complete strangers, don’t get me wrong I have always been uncomfortably honest with people, but I feel that I am taking this to a whole other level this time. I am consciously pushing my borders gently but steady, allowing my spirit to reach out and touch someones heart, and allowing them to touch an hold mine. My trust grows bigger and bigger with each day, and It’s becoming harder and harder to hold back, and easier and easier to let go. I’m constantly being tuned back in to listening to my soul, who is chanting this beautiful melody saying, open up dear, allow more!  I’m sacred sometimes but I always say yes (sooner or later) and happily wander down the path of my own Loveolution.

 

I wish you a happiness and love beyond comprehension.

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How to be happy

The first step to being happy in my book, is being ok with all that is.
That means embracing all your beautiful flaws and shadows, and loving them just as much as you love your radiant smile and light. So my question to you today is:

What parts of you are you hiding form the world and why?
How would it feel if you could embrace and love those sides of you and maybe even let others love them?

It can feel hard to let the world see all of you, I know, I’m struggling with this too. But I have found that the more times I dare to stay open, vulnerable and transparent the easier it gets.

It is important to make a conscious choice a commitment to practice openness, and  to allow yourself to be ok with who you are and all the emotions that you are experiencing in that moment. Letting people see you, all of you without feeling ashamed. You truly are perfect, and when you realize that, other people will too. If they for some reason don’t, it really doesn’t matter anyway, the only thing that does mater is how YOU feel about YOU.

I urge you to make this commitment to yourself today,  you deserve to live life fully and the world deserves to see you shine.

If you find it hard to remember this commitment,  it can help to have something that reminds you of it in your surroundings. I have a rose quartz around my neck, and as I go about my day I often touch this stone and ground myself for a second, reminding myself of who I am and why I’m here.

I want to share this inspiring quote by Jamie Catto with you, this moved me to the core. I’m working on allowing the world to love some parts of my body that have been hard for me to love, and I already see a shift coming.
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Wishing you loads of self love and bubbling joy.

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Absolutely no regrets

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“When in doubt, choose the kids. There will be plenty of time later to choose work.” Anna Quindlen

This quote sums up the reason why I have chosen to be a stay at home mom and freelance in my free time. There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t feel deep gratitude to the universe, the angels, my sons father and my family for helping me arrange a reality where I can be present in my sons life. We live in a society where time is money, but the truth is money comes and goes, there isn’t a time stamp on it, but time with your loved ones is something precious that we can’t ever have back, something we only have now. Did you know that most people on their death bed have one thing in common? They regret not spending enough time with their loved ones. Makes you think huh?!

When I was a kid a saw an interview with Madonna, she was talking about living life with absolutely no regrets… that stuck with me…living life with absolutely no regrets.

I have a long way to go before I can honestly say that I’m following my heart to a 100%, but I know I’m getting there. I’m trying to make my future self happy and proud of the choices I make today. For all you who read this, I hope you all follow your dreams, your passion and your heart. Life is too short not to be present in every moment. So pick up that phone and call an old friend or your family, tell them you love them, and how thankful you are for their presence in your life.

Sending you all love and light.

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Have you found your Unicorn?

Running around trying to get things done, having this feeling that I’m missing something. I’m not sure where I’m going anymore I must have lost something, but what?

Then It dawned on me, I’ve lost my Unicorn! It’s not here anymore! I’m not sure when it happened or what I did to make it happened, but I do know that I have to do everything in my power to find my  precious unicorn again.

My Unicorn is my faith, my power, my mystic, my depth, my drive…simply put, it’s is the magic in my life!!

My beautiful bright Unicorn is my power animal, my other half, the one that I can always count on to keep me safe, the one that brings me back to  sanity and reality.

See, the reality is that life is pure magic, and if you have forgotten that, then you have lost your unicorn my friend. I guess we all knew what magic was deep down in our hearts when we were kids. We were wondering where the rainbow ended and fantasizing about how soft it would feel to sleep on a cloud. We bursted with excitement every time we saw a sunset, felt the grass under our feet or tasted a juicy cinnamon roll. Life was magical…. for most of us anyway.

If you never had this experience, or if you don’t remember it, don’t worry dear it is not too late, it is NEVER too late. You have the right to your own unicorn, every one does. You are entitled to a life full of magic, and the best part is you can always open your heart and let the stardust and magic in, this will lead you to your unicorn.

Yes, that is what I  am going to do right now, open my heart wide open and trust that my unicorn will come back to me. Oh, I can feel it now, we will ride down the sunset together my unicorn and I…. I wonder what magic lies behind the horizon.
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I wish you an open heart and open mind.
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Is it ever too Late?

I have been pressuring myself quite hard these last couple of years. See, according to my plans, I was supposed to release a new Album/Book 1 1/2 years ago…what happened, you might ask? Life did. I got a beautiful gift from the stars, my beautiful Son. I also managed to delete everything from my computer, when I say everything I mean EVERYTHING! All the music I have ever done, all my art, the whole Book. I was left with nothing…. and you know what, I needed that, a blank canvas to fill with a new story from a new me.

This is what I’m doing now, painting a new story. This is truly a blessing in disguise, I am not the same person anymore, motherhood and life has changed me, and evolved me. I am on a new path now, with new thoughts and new feelings and new gifts to give.

My little sunshine has taught me what is important in life, to be true to your heart.

I want to share this video with you guys, because it Inspired me to remember, that no matter what life serves you and how many detours you take in life, it is NEVER too late. This woman is 80, she wanted to dance her whole life, and now she is living her dream.

I truly hope that you are all doing what makes you happy in life.
You deserve it, and the world needs it.
Sending you lots of sunshine.
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